What to do?

About 6 weeks ago I let Sammy go to a new home. At the time I was very distraught over what I had done and wasn't sure I'd made the right decision. Sammy was extremely unhappy with me because he spent a lot of time alone in his cage. He doesn't like that. The new folks said the wife was home all day and Sammy would get out a lot and blah, blah, blah. I bought it hook line and sinker, though I did feel a little bit uneasy. I put that down to my guilty feelings for giving him away. As soon as he was gone the house was much quieter and I just felt a pressure lifted off me. I had been constantly worried about spending time with him. I had gotten incredibly busy and was having less and less to give him and the pressure to spend time with him was killing me. I felt guilty whenever I didn't spend time with him. I felt guilty when I did because it would only be a couple of hours. Also, when I did have him out I really couldn't do anything else. Sammy ate papers, destroyed wood, did all kinds of destructive things and would bite me if I wasn't paying attention. So I find these people and Sammy just adored the guy and though I felt guilty, I gave it a go. Things seemed to be great, I talked to the guy a couple of times but I haven't gone to see Sammy because I didn't want to confuse him. Then yesterday I was talking to another bird friend of mine and he told me that he's seen Sammy on the streets of Waikiki. The guy is using him as one of those birds that you take pictures with. Now I am torn about this. I don't like the idea of Sammy being a money maker, I think that devalues an animal BUT he is out everyday, with people - which he loves - and he's not trapped in a cage and ignored. My bird friend does this too and while his birds don't get the best treatment they are in great shape. So I'm all torn. I'm upset because this guy lied to me, kind of, but this is not necessarily a bad life. Humans might view it as bad but in many ways it's better then being stuck in a cage all day and completely ignored, which is what was happening here. Oh I don't know. I really think my guilt is what's causing these feelings. I've been very happy since Sammy's been gone and I think I feel guilty because of that. I really hate this kind of stuff. Have to run, I have some planning to do. Our bird club is planning our Christmas party and I have to get some holiday invitations. They need to go out in the next week so I have to get one it.

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1 comments:

Fisher said...

That is so amazing - great photos of the process. Aren't they cute even in a fight!